i totally have no idea how to move on from here. hmmm. i realised the last 5 months had been a test for myself. and now i realise i have always been a failure. a big failure living in self-denial. i want to scream but no one will scream with me. really miss the days that i feel comfortable with everyone. i won't feel as stressed even when i am because i have the people ard me to share all my troubles with. i have the people ard me to drain away my troubles, and we'll go mad like nobody's business. now everything feels so different, so complicated. and sometimes you'll see fake smiles. teachers assume you know everything. friends may not have the time to listen to you. you see people wanting the best for themselves? i wnat to get out of the rat race!!
still... some people just brighten up my day! hmmm..